I can't begin from the beginning....

How can I start from the beginning, there is so much to tell.......today finds me in a spot with so much going on........Mr. Italy ( adorable Italian, 25 year old who grew up in Africa, and just moved into the apartment next to mine) and I are going out for sangria on Thursday night, Mafia (39 year old music producer with whom I have been smitten for a long time, and who has recently moved to AZ) is acting a little funny....he invited me to come and visit him in AZ, but as soon as I said that I thought I would.....he fell off the face of the earth, typical really( for him).  I cancelled a date with Mr. C, (young 28? year old italian) for tonight, I had a tough week, and I just didn't feel up to acting like everything was okay.  I'm very good at pretending that everything in my life is wonderful....but sometimes it isn't....so why waste the energy?  Mr. Mexico (very handsome mexican playboy, so fun and charming to be around) said that he might come visit this weekend.....he really isn't the best thing for me (being a playboy and all) but he is always fun, and I always feel happy around him......

Oh wait!  Didn't I tell myself that I was taking a break from dating.....?????