Being yourself isn't everyone's cup of tea....

I can't help it, I'm a New Hampshire tomboy, turned city girl.....and not everyone likes it.  I've noticed that men appreciate my beauty, but not my ability to actually do things.  It just all seems so strange to me, because I can't understand why someone wouldn't love the fact that I can actually do things, but I guess that isn't really the way, or maybe only certain people would like it?  I don't really understand it....so why am I even trying?  I think that the kind of people I grew up with, liked women who could do things, but here in the city it's a little different, you're just supposed to look pretty and not have much of an opinion?  Yuck!  That just so isn't me, I really don't get it.  I flew a plane for the first time, and I loved it....but it's so funny, I can honestly say that all of the men I know seemed to think it was a little weird.  They just want a pretty little quiet girl.....ohhhhh, that's not me, that girl is clearly not me.

I have decided not to be friends with my neighbor anymore, because you know why?  He just isn't that nice, and everything that I say, he just has to tell me how he does it so much better...ummmm, that is a weird reaction, and seriously, why do I care?  My life is so short, and why should I surround myself with anyone who isn't amazing?  It seems like he has something to prove, and I really don't want to get into that with anyone, I am just Me......I'm not as fancy as everyone thinks.

Love and light:)

Jaque's Caberet......

Went to Jacques Caberet with my friend M last night....it was fun, but now I'm tired.....and suffering a little:)  I feel so lazy for sleeping late every day!  Taking to Mafia, and another friend about going to Vegas for Labor day weekend.........problem is, hot California Tennis Chris is also coming that weekend, so I will miss him if I go away that weekend!  A super hot actor in Miami.....and I mean super! Invited me to a pool party in Miami........I def need to hang out with his hot self!.....after this trip I realllllly need to settle down and start acting like an adult!

Aerosmith......

Went to the Aerosmith concert at Fenway Park, so fun.....although def not into the J Geils band......everyone there seemed sooooooo old!  Texted Mr. Italy back and told him I have to play in a volleyball championship this weekend, and he told me that he could practice a little bit with me in the morning if I needed it.  Went out for sushi after the concert with my friend johnny.....

Yesterday  I had a great weight workout, then practiced my volleyball moves with Mr. Italy....tournemant was fun, I hope that I got some good pictures out of it....there were a ton of photographers there.  Afterwards Mr. Italy invited me over for dinner, or did I invite myself?  Not sure, but I tried not to flirt with him............we are just being friends after all.  Dinner was super fun, and I brought over yummy ice cream, and there was a moment after where we totally almost kissed....but we fist bumped instead....omg, hilarious!  Now I need to disappear a little, he can think about me because I'm just too busy and I'm vanishing!

I spoke to Mafia on Saturday, and he mentioned going to Vegas on Labor day.......I doubt it will really happen, but it would be a blast!  Tonight I'm going to see a fabulous drag show at Jacques!

Night out at the W.....

Last night I went out with my friends to the W.  Two of my girlfriends, plus my adorable client Jill all came out with me.....also the bf of one of my came out......I think I have been really quiet for a while and I have forgotten how fun it is to have a great group of people to go out with.  I wore a super adorable black dress, which I realized as I was walking to hail a taxi.....was probably indeed a shirt!  It rode up the entire time I was out!  Short short short.....and then some!  Mr Italy and I texted a few times, and I was still a bit bummed out about the situation.......I think my ego gets a bit bruised from things sometimes, and it's completely silly.

We all talked about our upcoming trip to Miami and what a blast it is going to be.....I am sooooo excited!  I talked on the phone to Mr. Older confirmed bachelor for a bit before I went out, he's a majorly successful businessman who is retired!!! already, and we are going on a date in a few weeks.....also got a message from a hot spanish soap opera star who is trying to meet me ( Mr. Latin hotness), a Vegas Dj ( Mr. DJ) who has been chasing me, a 30ish year old guy from Miami Mr. Helicopter.....Mr. Helicopter is trying to get in on my Miami trip as I he lives there.  I don't really want someone to cramp my style....after all, I am paying for this trip myself!  Also my former latin boyfriend sent me a text....but I knew it wasn't nice (in response to mine which said: okbye!!) so I deleted it!  I also spoke to Mafia, who is the one I really like.....but only for a second....how do I keep them all straight?

Off to the gym to train, I need to look amazing in my bikinis next week!

mini romance over:)

Had a nice walk with Mr. Italy tonight, but we decide that it's just not the smartest option to date a neighbor.  It's just too weird to live right next to someone and date them....like, how does that even work?  Anyway, I think it's really good that we stopped when we did, and I'm glad that we will be friends, it's so much more important to have a friend than it is to date someone:)

Dancing and italian pastries......

So first of all, my new neighbor Mr. Italy brought me a plate full of italian pastries.....this was especially funny as I am someone who is on a diet all the time.  When he showed me the plate I looked at it as if it was carrying a nuclear bomb that was about to explode.  That said....of course I broke down and had one later!  I was going out dancing with a few of my friends, so I invited him along (ummmm yes because he's new in town, and also....he's adorable....) anyway, we had a great time, and he's a really fun dancer.....but there is something about dancing, as we were walking through the crowded club, he offered his hand, and bam......holding hands can be magnetic.

He walked me home, (after all....we live right, and I mean right next to each other) and on the way, we were joking and flirting, and started kissing.  It's sort of a funny thing, because he lives next to me, this could be really bad in so many ways, but I think he's just adorable....I may have already said that about five times?  What's a girl to do?  I could tell him that we should pretend that never happened?  I stopped over for a minute to chat last night and it was awfully awkward......I think he wanted to hug me at the door, but I backed away from him and almost knocked some stuff off of a shelf.  We did wind up sharing a kiss (oh and I stopped in for half a cannoli.......but what to do?  If I go on a date, they would literally drop me off outside his window.  Oh my!

Older or younger....?

Now that I'm 34, I'm just not sure whom I want to date?  Younger guys are awfully adorable, but I think older guys might be more my style?  I have a date with a guy I met through a friend of mine at the opening for a Japanese restaurant......I bet you he's 15-20 years older that I am.  Is that too old?  I guess I won't know until I talk to him......It's funny, the young ones make me feel old, and the old ones make me feel young!!!!